"I'm in pieces, we're not going to Sanremo": Fedez, the audio of the dramatic outburst on the eve of the Festival | Video

Fedez's Sanremo Festival has become a sort of documentary film. Alessandro Della Giusta , a well-known YouTuber with 1.28 million subscribers on his channel, spent the week of the festival in the company of the Milanese rapper. From the dress rehearsals to the final. "I arrive at his house, but something doesn't add up. He's not in the best mood but I know that's how he is so for now I don't give it any weight", begins the video titled " 7 days with Fedez: the truth behind his Sanremo ". "It amazes me how unstable his mood is - he continued -. Then we finally arrive at the Ariston, they give us the passes and we start to get to know the spaces that in a few days will be unforgettable".

But Fedez's Sanremo could have ended earlier than expected. The Milanese rapper, in fact, had thought about withdrawing from the competition. And, for this reason, he had sent an audio to his video maker: "Look Ale, we most likely won't go to Sanremo anymore because I'm not in the right condition . I'm not capable of dealing with something like this. I'm pretty broken ." The reference, in this sense, is to Fabrizio Corona's revelations about that sort of love triangle between him, his ex-wife Chiara Ferragni and Achille Lauro, also competing in Sanremo.

Hence the looming depression and obsessive thoughts of suicide. " I tried twice - he confessed -, but you mature those thoughts when waking up the next day is a burden. I'm happy (not to have done it, ed. ) for my children. […] It was three years... I had cancer, I broke up with my wife and they prescribed me like 5-6 psychotropic drugs together . I was going crazy. In the meantime, that whole year, I had two internal hemorrhages, I ended up in hospital 3.4 times a month. I felt better when I left the house. I was in a house worth 15 million euros, 1000 square meters and I was not only mentally ill - he then added -, but also physically ”.

“When I performed for the first time at Sanremo in the year of Maneskin, I had the biggest panic attack of my life when I asked myself if I was truly happy. Why did I return to Sanremo now? I want to take back my life and I need music,” Fedez said. “ Battito is a song about love and hate , about the difficult coexistence with ourselves.” The video posted by Corona was the straw that broke the camel’s back, already full of Fedez’s thoughts: “Psychological pressure is really difficult to explain; things get bigger and bigger, even if you’re used to being in the media. The only person who could understand me is Chiara , she can understand.” From here, we return to talking about Corona and the media consequences of his revelations: “I told him to put his hand on his conscience and think about my children.”

7 days with Fedez: the truth behind Sanremo, the documentary by Alessandro Della Giusta